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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Ask myself that sometimes : " Who am I " , "wat I really wan ?", Who am I really is ?", Wat sort of identity I want?

I felt that I have spit personality. If I want low profile , i remain quiet , observe and learn. If I want to be really crAZY , I break jokes (ya...crappin) , making people mad , dance like no 2moro and tok nonsenses, bitching etc. If I want atittude , I be mean , snagger,heckcare abt things surrounding me and do the things I want, cut my hair to various sort of style and felt no problem abt it . I can be any sort of person i want ....if I want to.

One thing Tat I am not ...... I am not a hypocrite. i shall nv befriend wif a hypo as hypocrite is never a sincere friend. Toking to a insincere could make me puke and uneasy.

I'm 21 and still in identity crisis .....but I will try my best to be on my best atittude in almost all situation. I am suppose to be now . ESp In the careeer i am now.... I hope to be on my best behavior and try my best ...... only with God's blessing....

I nv know that it is so difficult to be myself sometimes and although my motto is "heck care simply bor chup" but sometimes........it's so difficult to achieve that ......as that is truly a blessing.
IT's never a simple case.....to ignore people's stare and unfavourable opinions.

Whenever i started to question myself , feeling the -ve energy abt myself and become self- concious; I remembered Helen's words (Helen have been working in my previous industrial attachment ,Nestle, as a senior chemist for 20 over years) , She said to me "WHY SHOULD YOU BE SO SELF -CONCIOUS abt how ppl looking at you? my gal ...."

When she said that to me ..... in a presence of sheer mockery by her in a positive way because wat she means is that ....it worth a sympathy to people who dun even stand still and strong in their own feet and be who they are ........ with character.

isn't those people who have no strong character worth a pity? They dun ever have character and they will blow away easily with peers, in other words, their life is not their life anymore, their life have been control by others.

Taking control of our life is such a thrill .... even in some circumstances we can't but think abt it ...at the end of the day ....does this life matter to you ? Or are you too coward to even control your own life, conquering your destiny?

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